50 things

I totally saw this on Melissa's (http://www.melandjoe.com/home/) blog and thought it'd be a fun idea... it's 50 things about me... because I know everybody is interested... haha...



1. i am a 6th generation california girl. west coast is the best coast!


2. i love to do a "fargo" accent... and once i've started, it's hard to stop.


3. broadway musicals are one of my favorite forms of entertainment.

4. my favorite colors are red, pink, yellow, orange... but i'd rather wear black, green, blue, purple.


5. i don't really like diamonds. they don't do anything for me.


6. i was in bosnia during the war. (no really.)


7. if i could live anywhere other than dallas, it'd be washinton, dc.


8. titanic will always be one of my most favorite movies.

9. when i start to read a book, if it's a good one, i'll keep reading and reading until it's over. the longer the book, the better.

10. i think that laughter is the greatest sound, and i happen to think that the women of my family have the BEST laughs.

11. my guilty tv pleasures include the girls next door, 90210 (the old one), ghost hunters, inside the actors studio with james lipton, and old "questions with the prime minister" when it was tony blair.

12. the first concert i went to was the beach boys. the most recent one was elton john.

13. i have my next three tattoos planned.

14. i firmly believe that the best shoes are probably not comfy.

15. my christmas tree is only 4 feet tall... but it has enough decorations/lights to FILL a 7 foot treet.

16. my favorite things to collect are bags, shoes and patron tags.

17. my first job was at the palace of wax where i worked security... but really, i just hung out with the hot maintenance guys.

18. i can't say no to white chocolate.

19. i can still quote almost all of the movie "liar liar" because it's the funniest thing ever.

20. my childhood nickname was monkeyface.

21. i didn't drink alcohol for 7 years. which means that i didn't drink a drop on my 21st birthday. most people i know now find that hard to believe.

22. i was a cheerleader in middle school. i also took dance for years and was on the drill team.

23. when i make business calls, my voice gets really high. i can't help it.

24. my favorite holidays are halloween and new years. my least favorite are valentine's day and thanksgiving.

25. i suffer from road rage. big time.

26. i love history. especially british history.

27. i'd rather be cold than hot.

28. i when i meet someone, i know within the first three minutes if i'll hit it off with them.

29. i can't drink milk out of a plastic cup.

30. i've taken french, spanish and american sign language. i know just enough to know nothing.

31. it bums me out to think about all the people who i don't talk to anymore.

32. i prefer things be at right angles and in straight lines.

33. i'm a democrat.

34. i love cheese. pretty much any kind.

35. my dream vacations include but aren't limited to: london, rome, dublin, tuscany, hawaii, berlin, sydney.

36. i'm a big nerd when the olympics are on. i watch then 24 hours a day.

37. if i have on any shoes that aren't flip flops, i've over 6 feet tall. and i'm okay with that.

38. when i was little i wanted to be a meteorologist. until my math teacher in the 5th grade said that was a bad idea for me. (stupid teacher)

39. i'm kinda musical. (of used to be) clarinet, piano, guitar... and i sing alto. but only in a choir. a big choir. with lots of other people singing too.

40. i won the geography bee in the 4th grade. i'm still proud of that.

41. i love politics. i really love election season. i can't get enough. and i get really worked up about the issues i believe in. (i'm still upset about prop 8.)

42. i've had a lot of pets in my life. birds, cats, dogs, fish. but herbie is the best cat ever.

43. i changed my last name on my 18th birthday.

44. i had braces as a kid. and i slept in headgear. and i had a rapid-pallet-expander in the top of my mouth. all in all: we paid good money for my smilin' face.

45. i love my bed. it's the most comfortable one ever.

46. i love the zoo. it's where i go to think.

47. i don't like to go to northpark mall if i don't have on cute shoes.

48. i love sushi. it's one of my favorite foods.

49. i can bake. i don't do it nearly enough, but i love it and i'm glad my mom taught me how.

50. my "list" includes: leonardo dicaprio, justin timberlake, ewan mcgreggor, matt damon and prince william.

it's done... (warning: wordy)

well it's official. my dad doesn't live with my mom anymore. by christmas it'll be official: they'll be divorced.

he's living with his mom. she's still in the house. the house i grew up in (for most of my life anyway).

what the hell.

i thought this kind of thing happened with you were younger. too young to know what was going on... when all you cared about was where your toys would be.

but not now. now i'm 27. now i've been in the real world, on my own, all grow-ed up for years now. i've had enough of my own relationships to know that sometimes they don't work out. but my mom and dad...? no, no. especially not now that i can actually see and understand both sides.

my mom is the one who filed. and it was the right decision. i believe that with my whole heart. but i'm a selfish creature. and i'm left with a lot of selfish questions.

what about me? since i agree with my mom, can my dad ever forgive me?
what about holidays? do i have two birthdays, two christmases? my mom always did that stuff, will he even want to?
what about how this effects the way i look at marriage, at love? if the two most amazing people i've ever known can't make it work... how can i?

it is what it is i guess. everybody asks me if i'm okay.

it wasn't my marriage that ended. it was my family.

so no, not really. i'm not okay.

halloween recap

so the theme for the halloween block party was "fairy tales"... frank's portion of the bar was themed "alice in wonderland". behind the bar was frank: the mad hatter, jeff: weedle dee, james: the white rabbit. who was alice... no one else but ME of course!

the sunday after block party, we went to visit brandon at a new club "sekret". he looked fantastic and it was really good to see him since i don't get to see him at s4 anymore.

on halloween night i was out again... here are some great costumes that i just couldn't resist.

by the way... frank's shirt says "mad hatter this, bitches!" he didn't want to dress up again... so i came up with this idea. it was a big hit, of course.

election '08

this will be short as i'm on my way out the door to go to work...

THANK YOU AMERICA!!
SEN. BARACK OBAMA WAS THE BEST CHOICE!!
GOOD JOB!!

here's to being a part of history everybody... isn't it great?!

and then it was something different...

well, things change.

they change in little ways, slowly, over years and years.

sometimes they change in a big way, suddenly, without warning.

and every now and then the little changes add up and they create the big scary changes.

that being said... i'm sad to announce that after 19 years of marriage my parents are splitting up. yep. the big D. the details are complicated... but let the record indicate that i totally support my mom for filling. it's the right thing, it's the necessary thing.

anyway, there it is. i hope that they will both be happy. i hope i'll get a grip on all of this. the tailspin i'm trying to get through is unreal. my thoughts on love, marriage, trust... totally thrown.

that's all i've got to say right now.